I was sitting at home on my couch in front of my laptop with a glass of orange juice in my hand looking for flights and the sun peeking through the blinds of my large window. It was 9:00AM on a Monday when I looked at the clock - and with this sense of mild … Continue reading Easy Monday Morning
Dear Diary, I was out on the street to change my parking, and before getting in my car there was this cute, tall, white guy in a black hoodie coming from the gym making eye contact. I looked back, and then totally broke eye contact. I should have maintained it. You owe it to the … Continue reading Cute guy in hoodie
I looked over our old texts today. I looked at his pictures. Well, before I deleted the conversation I saved the pics into a folder. Now I'm watching the latest 50 Shades of Grey. Meh. It's bootleg. But it's such a shame that people in countries like Brazil look to US thinking that this might … Continue reading 50 shades and Him
It's time to reign in my thoughts. I just realized that my mind goes on autopilot on seeking out events, current problems, interaction, and etc going on around me that I have no control over and my body is saying - stop it and just remember to breathe and embrace it. A lot of things … Continue reading Racing thoughts
I guess I'm still under seasonal affective disorder, where in the morning I'd feel a sense of anxiety - and it's so normal. I see my body as a vessel of neurotransmitters and hormones that helps me feel certain things, abiding with the rules of physics and maybe some transcending things. Things are starting to … Continue reading Magnificent
Today I am no longer vegan! I am ready to feel revitalized haha. We'll see. I need more protein!
I woke up today with a little heart break. I dreamed of him again with his boyfriend whom he briefly mentioned and is someone who I've never seen a picture of before. So in the dream it was this guy with smaller frame and blond hair sticking up. I wake up asking why have I … Continue reading Heart bleed
I woke up realizing I just had a nightmare. I had a dream about Dane who was friends with my older cousin (who in real life has never met nor whom I talk to much) but they were such good friends in my dream and Dane treated me like chopped liver, like in real life. … Continue reading Dane in my dream
I usually have three days off in the week, and Benjamin who looks really good on paper said that I might just be his housewife. That'd be so cool. But idk, haha. He's 28 I'm 26. His income allows us to. He's always hitting on me. Lol. He graduated at the top of his class … Continue reading Housewife, really?
I've been feeling a little emotional this morning, I've been listening to Lady Gaga just for nostalgia's sake in the past couple of days. When 'Bloody Mary' played today, it reminded me that at this moment I'm turning 27 next months and I live in Seattle. All of those combinations remind me of Justin of … Continue reading Emote/Le Justin