Ok, so I finally have a straight up, masculine guy who is 27 years old who really is bisexual. He’s lean, blond, smooth and I enjoy sucking his cock and receiving anal sex from him, bareback. I’ve gone out a few times with him and doing things that I haven’t done in a while or things I haven’t done before. He’s open to doing plenty of things, which is great. He may be playful and willing to do things with me, he isn’t truly affectionate (well only at rare times when he’s open to emotional sensitivity) and I would say, tries to stir drama within me when there is none or could ever be. He’s attempted to make me jealous several times, I suppose. He does say that he wants to have babies and so will end up having wife one day, whom he says will never know about his sexual escapades with men, as they would never be okay with that.
Now that I’ve had a taste of him and more, I don’t really know what else to do with him. He is really good in bed with really good libido, but I feel like I’m the 40 year old woman who finds herself torn with what she wants from her 27 year old boy-toy. I feel like I need to cash out before everything falls to shit or actually just end up being friends with him, I don’t know. He has told me all plenty of his stories and past relationships with guys. I guess he always one-ups me on all things.
So I guess this is pretty much it. This is what it’s like to have a “Str8” FWB. After this, I pretty much just need to restructure my desire and what I want with the relationships that I have with people, in general, and in my personal/love life and to embody it.
If I don’t ever hear from him again, it wouldn’t really matter to me.